When Time Stands Still

I just watched a music video from Reba McEntire called Just Like Them Horses.  She wrote the song for her father who recently passed away.  In that moment while I was watching the video, it felt like time stood still for just 3 minutes.  Her voice is so captivating and the song brought me back to the place I’ve been so many times, surrounded by death.

Have you ever felt like everything in life was standing still?  I know, most of the time I’m crying “where has the time gone” when I refer to my youth and my children growing up.  But, in everything else, lately it seems time is standing still.

1 day in homeschool feels like wasted time sometimes.  I only recognize growth after several months, but that 1 day always feels like a stand still, like we’re getting no where, like we should go back to bed and start over again.  Oh how I thank my Jesus for His beautiful grace.  Where I fall short, He covers me.  Where I fall tired, He sustains me.

I’ve worked so hard for so long with music only for my efforts to fail.  I wasn’t looking for fame.  I had no desire to be on the road away from my family, but I desired to bring people closer to Jesus and to make a difference and for my songs to touch hearts.  It all came to a screeching halt when yet one more person made promises to write with me and give me a chance only for them to fall through instead of following through.  I’ve learned musicians aren’t the most reliable people in the world.  They have their own agenda.

I’ve worked so very hard in direct sales.  I’ve sometimes shamefully put my family aside to go party with hostesses and customers for products we all love.  My reasoning was, if I were working any other job, I would have to miss some events.  It’s not the end of the world.  Yet, all of my efforts haven’t gotten me very far.  Me promoting again is completely tied up into others and what they do with their business.  I have zero control of my own hard work and destiny.  I can’t go up unless they do, it’s the name of the game.  And again, I’m standing still.

I’m tired.  I’m broken.  I’m defeated.  I’m standing still.

I keep telling myself that the Lord knows the answer.  He knows and I can honestly take comfort in knowing that truth.

Psalm 46:10New International Version (NIV)

10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”

I don’t know where you are in life.  I literally have 15 readers and this may not be for any of you.  But, if it is, if you’re at a crossroad or you feel like you’re really going no where, take delight in knowing that He is with you.  Even if you’re “nowhere” our awesome, all knowing, all powerful, life giving, faithful God is there with you.  How amazing is that?!  And this promise of His… “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations and in the earth”. Wow, wow, wow!  Will you be still and watch Him show you His greatness?

Allow HIM to be God over you right where you are in the very place you cry out to Him.  Allow Him to cover you, wash you, and love you and then, just be still.

Father, help me!  Help me to just know that it’s ok.  It’s all ok!  It’s ok to just be still, in fact you’ve mandated that I should be still.  In the stillness make me know you and see you in all your glory.  Shine on me like you do.  Outshine me so that everyone sees you and not me.  Show your greatness because I need you Jesus.  Thank you for your promises.  Amen.

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