Don’t Take It Back

Why is it easier for us to hand God something, then take it back, than it is to just leave it with Him for good? Maybe it’s our constant need of ownership.  “This is my problem, I need to fix it.  I own it.”

We love owning things.  We own our own businesses or want to.  We own a house or long to.  We own our vehicle and no matter how old, new, fancy, or plain it is, it’s ours.  We own a dog.  We own a cat.  We own expensive clothes, big trucks, huge toys, gorgeous furniture, fancy jewelry, etc… We want it all.

Ownership gives us pride.  We feel good about ourselves.  “Look what I worked hard for.  Look what I have.”  We love it.  It shows control. ” I have control of my life, look what I’ve been able to accomplish.  I make wise decisions.  I’m smart, I finished college and this is my degree.  I did this.  I made straight A’s with nobody’s help.  I put myself through college with nobody’s help.  I built this house with my bare hands.  I built the life I have and I won’t settle for anything less because it’s mine.  I wanted this, so I bought it.”  We love it… all!

We love to own it, don’t we?

There’s that control again.

There are 8 verses in the bible that talk about meditating on the Word day and night.

Joshua 1:8     Psalm 119:15     Psalm 119:78     Psalm 119:97

Psalm 145:5     Psalm 19:14     Psalm 104:34    Psalm 1:1-3

Psalm 1

Blessed is the one
    who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
    or sit in the company of mockers,
but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
    and who meditates on his law day and night.
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers

I have to wander this; if I were to meditate on the Word day and night, would I fall into fear and worry?  See, taking ownership of an issue or problem that you gave to the Lord stems from needing to be in control but it also stems from fear and worry.  You fear the outcome won’t be the outcome you want.  You worry that God won’t answer your prayer just as you prayed it, so you take it all back again, as if you could do a better job than Him.  Taking it back only fills you with more fear and more worry and you end up “giving” it back to God again.  It’s a viscous cycle.  But, what if I meditated on the Word day and night?

To meditate means to think deeply or focus one’s mind for a period of time (Oxford Dictionaries).  So, if I choose what the Bible says and I choose to meditate on scripture, to think on scripture day and night, how could I possibly pick my worries back up if I’m thinking on scripture all day and all night?

I love what Psalm 1:1-3 says.  If I meditate on the Word day and night I will be like a tree planted by the water that yields this awesome delicious fruit in season, right on time… ahhh, perfection!  I won’t wither away, in fact, whatever I do will prosper.  A-May-Zing!!! God’s promises are so good!  I would much rather be blessed and prosperous and yield awesome fruit at the peak of the season allowing God to show off His awesome perfection through me, than be bound up in fear and worry, yearning to be in control.

I remember in college when I would have a problem, I would literally write out or type out scriptures and tape them all over my condo.  I wanted a constant reminder.  I needed to be reminded of who I was in Christ and that God had a purpose.  I still believe in this today.  I completely believe in posting scripture all over the house and I believe doing this now, shows my children that I live what I speak.  I’m delving into that secret place, that high place with Jesus and I’m giving Him my all, including my yuck and my worry and my fears.

Give it to Jesus and leave it with Him and meditate on His word both day and night.  Start today!

Father, I thank you for this day.  You woke me up again, you’ve given me another breath to breathe and you are still my God.  You are still the maker of the heavens and the earth.  You are still my King of Kings.  I give you my troubles.  I’ve been heavy burdened for far too long.  I want to purposefully meditate on your word both day and night.  I want to know that I know that I know that you have everything in your control, just where it needs to be.  I want to draw closer to you and further from the world.  I want to be prosperous and strong like a tree planted by the water.  I thank you for your many blessings and for your peace to overcome me now Jesus.  I love you so much.  Amen.

Planted by streams

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