Exhausting & Lovely

Today. Was. Exhausting. And. Lovely.

If you remember, I blogged about my friend’s mother who passed away about a week ago. Today was her memorial service. I didn’t handle it very well. I figured I would cry… But seriously… I was a blubbering mess!!!

I’ll call my friend SB… SB asked me to sing at her mother’s memorial. She said that her mother always loved my voice and so did she. Her sister told her to ask me as well… After she already did. Haha. So, this was very very sweet!! Of course I said yes! This woman was a pretty big part of my life and is in a lot of my childhood memories!

This morning was upon us and I was all ready to sing. She asked me to read my blog post too… Yeah… 2 sentences!!! 2 sentences in and I can’t control the tears! Tears turn into snot flying about! Snot flying about then turns into me asking my friend… Yes! SB… To hand ME a tissue!!! How tacky is that?! The really bad thing is that after the welcome… I was the first person to do anything! No one else was crying yet!!

So, anyway, I chose Over The Rainbow. Unbeknownst to me, SB’s mom’s favorite poem was Rainbow Road and it was printed in the order of service! It was perfect! The second song I chose was Amazing Grace, ocapello. Again, not knowing, this was the only song SB’s mom requested and it was in the order of service to sing as a congregational hymn at the very end. SB’s sister believes that was their mom doing her thing in a way… Still orchestrating things just so. I believe it was God giving us a confirmation that she is indeed is with him, without pain, without worry and she’s waiting for us all!

The entire service was lovely and perfect either way! Both of her daughters said the most beautiful things about her!! Scripture was read. Another family friend sang two more songs. The church prayed together. I believe it was exactly the way SB’s mom would have wanted her service to be.

Crying so much completely took all of my energy out of me today. I am exhausted! I am also a little “down”. I know that we will all see her soon, but a big part of my childhood died today. My mom is gone, several of her friends are gone, and the latest… SB’s mom. It’s hard to say good bye!

Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
If birds fly over the rainbow why, O then why can’t I

Someday I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
And troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops that’s where you’ll find me

Someday I’ll wake and rub my eyes
And in that land beyond the skies you’ll find me
I’ll be a laughing daffodil
And leave those silly cares that fill my mind behind me

5 thoughts on “Exhausting & Lovely

  1. You were perfect. The service was perfect. Everything, absolutely everything was beautiful and you helped to make that happen. It was so comforting for all of us to be reminded how much she was loved. Your tears brought a peace to my family that cannot be explained by words. Thank you for being part of one of the most important days of my life. I love you like a sister.


  2. Oh, it’s the purge of the longing of the heart of those who have left the fragrance of their love still with us like a soft breezy reminder that we do not stand alone when we have the wash of His spirit. When this happens public or private,it can be as a washing of His word,or the water of His burial, who knows.But this can leave us soft,tender and inviting. We can have strength at this time,to know what hand is holding our.Enjoy this moment blessings linda


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