This past weekend I had the honor of singing with the worship team at our “new” church for the first time. It was exciting and FUN!!! I forgot how fun it is to usher in the presence of God. I didn’t enjoy singing in the last ministry I was apart of the whole last year we were there! That to me was a huge sign that it was time to move on… the well had run dry there. Worshipping God is in my blood! It runs through my veins! So, for it to make me miserable for a year where we were at said a lot! Let me scratch that… for that time of worship to not be able to overcome what all was making me miserable there… said a lot!
After making our shift to our current church, I really felt that I needed stay uncommitted per say. I needed a sabatical, if you will! You can’t pour out of you what you’re not full of!!!! Let me say that again! You can not pour out of you what you are not full of!!! I needed REST! I had an exhausting departure from the former ministry and I had poured out everything! My emotions were drained, my mind was confused not understanding the course others had chosen, and I was just completely wiped out from being the “yes” girl for so long trying to please everyone else. I needed time to heal from everything that happened and time to hear from God to find myself in HIM! (I lost who I was along the way and became someone who did everything to please and try so hard to get the approval of some people who are suffering from a critical spirit. It was a loosing battle!)
I’ve heard it said that you if you take “a break” from ministry, you need a heart check! You can’t possbily take a break from what God has called you to do. Again, my God has reveled himself to me. God rested on the 7th day! Resting is part of our right as Christians! Our Father did it and it’s quite ok for us to do it too. In fact, “Keep the Sabbath” is one of our 10 commandments!
Someone said the other day, well, actually at band practice the other night that being in the wilderness is perceived as a bad thing, but actually Jesus went to the wilderness to hear from God. David had to be in the wilderness for 7 years to hear from God and get set free! John’s ministry was mostly in the wilderness. Wilderness means baren land. It is in no way saying that you are barren, but the place you are in is void of destractions, a place where you have no other choice but to hear the voice of God. So, I proudly say that I have been in “the wilderness” resting and I have heard Him and I am now filled up again!
I’m not sure how often I will sing with the worship team. I can tell you that I will continue to focus on songwriting and will love any opportunity I have to sing as I am able to. I stand by my convictions to keep God first, family second, and ministry third. I believe that as Christians our work is never done and we should be a light everywhere we go. I also believe that everyone’s ministry is constantly witnessing to people the love of Jesus both through words and actions. I don’t believe you have to hold a position in a church… the same position forever and ever in the same church forever and ever unless God has spoken directly to you to do so.
If you are in the wilderness right now, take this time to have no destraction, no opinions from others who have their own agenda… Just hear from God! Get filled up!